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Well. here i am. im 16 and very much thrust into the adult womb. how i hate it. college? bullshit. work? what the fuck. life? fuck that. it sseems like all my shit has gone wrong. i very much want to step into someone else’s shoes. ive been trying to gain weight recently. its hard. i have to eat twice as much to get 10 percent more. -__-. o well. at least i get to eat. i fucking hate high school. everything about it. except for select friends and teachers, it reaks of failure and contempt. fucking mexicans. im not racist, but its fucking retarded when they make fun of you and they try to make it look all cool by bringing 40 of their buddies so they dont get hurt. pisses me off. …. my parents. i probably shouldnt say this, t=but they are fuckheads. i hate my parents. i want to go east coast and never look back. they caused me anguish my entire childhood. im supposed to be the rich happy guy, but im jsut as poor as the fucker down the street walking around with nothing in his pocket. my life is empty. i hate california. it pisses me off. the people are fat, lazy, and dramatic. fucking pigs.
lent is around. ive given up porn, masturbation, profanity (har har) and i think thats it. on the other ive promised to eat more, and compliment people. like be nicer. i also planned to do math hw every night, but that failed. i really want to do the compliment people thing, but i feel like people already think im really awkward, so why bother,
this thing is really useful! my mind on the interweb. just played COH with mitchell for like 2 hours. hooray for insomnia. lets see. i wont mention names. but that one fucking chick can be BITCH. in fact she is. she good looking, but wtf, i hope she drowns in a small pool of acid. but that other chick is really nice. xD i dont think ill know who im talking about by then end of this. w/e its just temporary memory relaying.
its 3:50. i should sleep. i have to do physics and math. UGH. i want to go to BU, so i can work my ass off and go to NYU. then business major. :) maybe minor in law or soemthing. well thats me today. yesterday. w/e.
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Thought of the day

Do people actually have a purpose on earth? or is it a silly concept we create in order to feel good about ourselves?

well, if we are in fact advanced forms of apes and gorillas, i dont believe we do, sicne it was more an accident that we are here experiencing what we experience. if we are the creation of some intelligent being, i think we do have some sort of significance individually. why else would it create us? random thought.

Fate is not subject to our actions, we have already carved our future into an unchangeable pathway.